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对学校真失望，对军训真气愤，气的我说不出一句话来。我终于能体会《简爱》里描写的教会的学校是什么样子。教官除了一个我看的顺眼的像GAY的很帅的很有气质的像香港人的，其他的真恶心。我吐，我吐，我吐吐吐ING~~~~才刚回家，后天就要回学校。。。

还有，最近大家都没什么新动近，落寞。。。。

宝宝今年读初一了.今天是31号,明天开学，她不得不早早下线.为了纪念这最后一天------当然，是她送给我一首X-JAPAN的非常悲伤的歌,还要我翻译了歌词.我好难过啊!*嚎哭ING~~~*

( Crucify my love )

今晚过的非常不顺利!写日记都要写三遍,下载RANDY的视频也下了三遍!事不过三...但是..

"起床!"老爸凶狠地喊道.

"还早呢!"我也大力地回道.

"那我不去了!"老爸碰的一声关门.

对,今天是我去学校报名的日子.虽然同在上海,但是从青浦区到闸北区真是很花时间啊,地铁就要坐40分钟左右.爸爸总是很急,好象要去打仗似的.我每天晚上都睡的晚,哪起的来.

好，要吵架是伐,我跟爸爸就这么一路都互相火大,一出口就要吵起来,谁也不让步.在公车上,地铁上,学校里,以及回家的路上,一说话就是嚷嚷.哪怕一件十分细小的事,在一般人身上是吵不起来的，但我跟他就总有吵头.

"你看,可能是你同学."爸爸笑着说.我瞄了一眼一起等公车的两个女孩,不屑一顾.

然后滑稽的事情出现了,这辆车上的家长和女孩子原来几乎都是我学校的----同学?

更滑稽的事情出现了,爸爸说:"怎么这么多女孩子?"我不耐烦地说:"肯定是幼师专业的，我们学校只招女生,所以看起来女生多."我心想,嘿,到时我的专业肯定是男生多.毕竟理科生多，外加专业本身是技术操作型的.但当我看到影视制作专业的理科生学生名单的性别一栏时（因为我是理科的，没看到文科生表格）,我呆了:女，女，女，女......什么？！只有两个男生？

走在回家的路上，我茫然了．．．．．回想学校里到处女生的情景，我真纳闷这是怎么回事？它又不是女校！虽然我喜欢女人，但这些昂头挺胸的女人，一看就不是ＢＩ或ＬＥＳ，她们的脸．．．在我看来是麻木的，虽然我的脸更漠然，或者如果哪个男人胆敢看我超过三秒，我就立即报以鄙视的眼神威吓他．总之，对这些女生我是没兴趣的，即使有的很漂亮，有的一直和别人在谈笑，但对于我来说，却不那么亲切．就好象她们是皮笑肉不笑．

都是女人的学校？

我还没想过呢！以后我该怎么过呢．．．．我开始失望，连走路都没有感觉，也懒的和爸爸吵了．．

理由？很简单！我不信任很多女人！我在高中时就对身边的女人失去信心，她们的生活以男人为中心，好象没有男人会死掉似的，也没什么理想抱负．

其实现在回到家好好想想了，也许事情没那么糟糕．说不定我的新女同学既有志气，又自尊自主，又有钻研拼搏的精神，然后大家互相鼓励上进！（听上去有点像在做梦．．．不过反正学校已经给我一次打击了）９月３号到９号去宝山区的海军基地军训，衣服也都已拿到．后来回家时顺便在松江区的易初联花购物．回到家时，很累，贴个面膜倒在床上．应该１５分钟去撕掉的，但我却睡了一两个小时，然后突然醒来，摘掉面摸．．汗．．不会把脸给弄糟吧！

如果生活单靠自己，ＢＥ　ＡＬＯＮＥ，这是不利于学习技术的．上海大学和我的学校很近，看到篮球场那么多男生，我简直要拿看动物园猴子的目光了！（我会不会真的过久女子学校的生活后看到男人就像看到外星人一样激动啊？）

Congratulations! Vanii...well, tomorrow I'll go to college to...uha,just register first..but it'll be my first time to know about what the school looks like,etc. um,I saw it on its website before instead of with my own eyes.

but these days I have insomnia..I won't go to bed until 1:00pm. these two days even till 2:00. I'm always fretful befor asleep. alas...I don't trust drugs while I remember Randy's favourite getaway is Xanax(一种抗忧郁药). Sometimes I wanna have a try too..though I got hypochondria in high shcool time, I never had any drug(one reason was I was really ill,having stomachache and cholecystitis.) I prefer Chinese Traditional Medicine for it has no side-effect. I consider, as long as we feel happy, we'd never get mental problems with which professors dont agree.

What's your biggest guilty pleasure?  Randy said, Human companionship.(Read this,it made me feel sad.)

and in high school ,Randy thought he was bored.( I think it's suspect!)

Describe your ideal mate. Randy said, Embalmed(尸体防腐剂）．．（was Randy feel lonely?)

My biggest problem is I hardly go out of my room to have sociality or communicate with people in real life instead of online.

made some sad icons.

1. alone 2. unhappy 3. a beautiful couple..4. run! Justn

First I really want to complain that I've restart my pc numerous times while using PS.oh~fuck!

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Today, I went to my former high school to get my record and deposited money in the bank for college expenses.   It wass so hot outside that almost killed me! When I back home, I was almost dying.

actually I have much to say but....when u see it, u'd have known what I wanna say. yeah! fuck it! This shall be my last time to make on Randy with long hair and woman's body. omg! look what I have done with Randy. oh, I'm sorry, Randy. I 'm going to learn more skill of PS since I learnt myself a month ago.

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Today is sooo nice! ok, I still have nothing to do in my fuckin' too-long vacation. no baseball match, no interesting film,and no boring sketch lesson. So I made some icons but some cannot be upload on LJ. Shit!

1. 2. Haha, Randy doesnt have this coat 'cause the pic source is DIOR autumn 2005.

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wicked tour curtain call

is that Randy?

* I dont think so.*

I dont know really detailedly about Wicked because when I knew Randy, Wicked is already over.

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I'd like to share some old songs in old society in Shanghai, China.:)

1.Babylon in Shanghai

http://s22.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=25DI1I08V3AWX1FW22CILPH0Y2

2.If I don't have you

http://s26.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=3M86ICDIYYF6I168Y420E5921Q

3.No stopping love

http://s26.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0JCL8674017639MWKA5142GV0

ENJOY! I hope you like them!

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This is for qqqq2046. It cost me about 1.5h but the process I made it was amazing.  I specially searched info about how to use PS.  Then I got one tip which is how to make words like covered snow. TO my surprise, it need 18 steps!  But the tip is really a fool tip that you just need to follow what it said. so easy that u dont need any little part of brain.

That's what I need.

In fact, when I came home I felt so tired and wanted to sleep right away. yeah, this afternoon I went drawing. The sun was killing me!

All I writed is just blah blah. Haha.

And tomorrow is another day. I hope I can learn much about PS and make a lot of images of loving Randy. And finish the task well for dear qqqq2046.

I only made a few icons because I began it just now. I didnt wake to doing sth by myself until there are no new pics about Randy/Justin.  In the past, I always looked for others' works and never minded whether I could do it.  Now, I act.

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I am so happy tonight.

First, I was a piece of shit in the daytime because I almost did nothing, so I have no feeling of achievements.  Yes, Im a fucking person who are eager for quick success and instant benefit.

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